make art

Friday, September 7, 2018


            This week I did something I haven't done in years. I painted (and actually finished) a painting. And although I'm sure I'll look back and realize how poor of a job I did, today when I look at it I'm actually really, really proud of it.

            And beyond that, I simply loved how it felt to paint again.


            I've always felt a deep connection with art. I come from a family full of drawers, painters, potters, carvers, writers, musicians... Think of something creative, and there's someone in my family that's likely mastered it. But I've always held myself back. I mean, I was creative at every opportunity, but I never believed in myself. I've always seen so much more talent in my family than in me...and to this day I'm still so intimated by their talent.

            But I got to thinking... Most of them have been doing art their whole lives, they didn't make a business of it or even become successful at it over night. They applied themselves, spending hours a day dedicating their time to their craft.

            I had a strong urge to watercolor. I honestly had no idea what I was doing. When I was younger my aunt taught me some about it, and I'm sure I learned more about it in the dozen of art courses I took though out my schooling, but sitting their with a blank paper, a coffee mug filled with water, and my new paints, I felt clueless. But I absolutely loved it once the brush hit the paper, I loved the freedom of it. I loved how you could manipulate every curve and edge of paint even after it had dried. I just kept adding color and water until it became something I was happy with...


            I decided then that art was something I wanted to again make a priority. And I have been, I've been crafting more, drawing more, painting...and I've honestly felt more like myself than I have in a long time...

I found I could say things with color and shapes that I 
couldn't say any other way - things I had no words for.
- Georgia O'Keeffe -


With love, S.


forgiving myself

Wednesday, September 5, 2018


Forgiving Myself

...a deeply personal brain dump...


Two little words hit me this week.

Forgive yourself.

            And I realized quickly just how much I actually hold over my head. I always assume that when things don't go right, it entirely has something to do with my actions. I caused it, it's my fault. And even more wild, sometimes I'll manage to turn something that couldn't possibly be because of me or my actions and somehow make it my fault. I overthink, I break things down to minuscule things and I find a reason for all of it and somewhere in the middle I find myself to blame. This is where I need to let go. I have no ownership of the things I have no control over, and it's important that I let go of uncertainties and hand my fear over to God. It's important that I gain trust in the universe, in God.

             I hold my anxiety and depression over my head. I'm now at a point in my life where I'm no longer as effected by those two things, but it's still something I live in the past about. I worry if I let anxiety and depression hold me back. I worry if I allowed them to let me quit things or even not try in the first place. I worry about the possibility of my depression and anxiety getting bad again, I sometimes find myself even steering away from good opportunities because I fear the anxiety it could cause if it doesn't work out.

           I hold my fear of disappointing others over my head. I get sick over the idea of not living up to other's expectations of me. Even though I'm blessed to have the most supportive and hardworking family I could have ever asked for, I allow myself to think that I couldn't possibly be good enough for them.

            I hold my fear of failure over myself...and sometimes that fear is so strong that it keeps me from moving. In psychology, you'll learn about the whole fight or flight when it comes to fear. But there's a third F, one not always talked about. Your fear immobilizes you, you're frozen.

          I hold my inability to always heal everyone I meet over my head. I meet people and I want to do everything I can to replenish their energy, even if I use up mine to do so. I want to see them smile, see them believe in the magic of the universe, in themselves - I'm continuously in the pursuit of this and it's one of the bits about me I'm most proud of. But I'm also a people pleaser by nature and sometimes it's self-destructive and regardless I don't have the power to fix people. It's a hard lesson I've had to learn, but the truth is people can only change if they are willing to put forth the effort themselves. I make it my mission in any relationship to help them heal, but I have to gently remind myself that I don't have that kind of power to fix them, only God does. God created the universe and there's no reason he can't create change in our lives, too.

            I hold the loss of my strongest friendships over my head. Even though it's a part of growing up and in retrospect I've really only lost two close friends (neither of which were anyone's fault), I still hold it over my head. I wonder what I could have done differently, if they'd still be a big part of my life. I guess I should preface that I've always valued quality over quantity, I'm a huge introvert who formerly suffered from pretty bad social anxiety, and there are a very few number of people I've ever been real close to. I even hold that I'm not more outgoing and social over my head. I'm a wanderlust soul who's a homebody, I'm an empath who internalizes everything - my brain is basically a paradox and it's totally the INFJ in me...

            I hold the fact that my life isn't going according to how I'd thought or hoped it would over my head. How crazy is that? I mean, of course it's not going to go the way I planned, not when there's so much peace and joy waiting for me in God's plan for me. But I still hold it over my head, the fact that I've never been in love, the fact that I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, the fact that my dreams seem impossibly unreachable...

          By not forgiving myself, I'm living in the past and I'm not moving forward. I'm letting fear continue to get the best of me. I'm allowing my anxiety to come creeping back in, because I'm quite sure that most of what I've talked about in this post is the root of my anxieties. How can I heal in any shape or form if I'm not willing to forgive myself and let go? How could I be living my best life, as they say, if I'm still holding on to old demons. When I started writing, I had no idea where this was going (it was all a big brain dump), but I honestly didn't realize how much I was holding onto until I started writing. I swear writing is like therapy for me. The things I wrote about are things I really can't speak outlaid about. I struggle to find the words for what I'm feeling, but writing about it comes easy. I can be vulnerable when I write and that's about it.

            If you're feeling brave, I encourage you to write down the things you need to forgive yourself for, too. I think you'll be surprised at what revelations your writing brings you. The universe was definitely prompting me towards forgiveness and I learned so much about myself in turn.

“I have learned, that the person I have to ask for forgiveness from the most is: myself. 
You must love yourself. You have to forgive yourself, everyday, whenever you remember 
a shortcoming, a flaw, you have to tell yourself "That's just fine". You have to forgive yourself 
so much, until you don't even see those things anymore. Because that's what love is like.”
- C. JoyBell C.

With love, S.

life lately | september

Monday, September 3, 2018


Making: lots and lots of to do lists (and lists in general too)
Welcoming: my favorite months of the year (which begins with September and ends with December)
Drinking: lots of water, which I'm pretty happy about
Watching: currently all the Fast and Furious films which has me in all the feels
Hoping: for cool autumn days where I can explore farmer's markets and the art district in my city again (it's all so much better in the fall)
Reading: I think I want to dive back into some old classic favorites (autumn always makes me feel nostalgic)
Wishing: I could fuel my wanderlust and travel the world
Praying: God continues to open my eyes and reveal to me my soul's purpose (we've already made big strives in this department this year)
Loving: this weekend, and how peaceful and productive I am
Thanking: Christ this morning for his faithfulness and patience with me, I can't imagine I'm an easy person to work with
Missing: writing... (and it's my own fault, anytime I have a busy day it's one of the first me things that goes out the window)
Writing: haikus lately...and they suck (maybe I'll share a few once I find them tolerable to read back on)
Discovering: joy in the little things (all the simplicities of life are bringing me closer to the big things)
Thinking: a lot about getting out of Chattanooga for a bit (even for just a weekend getaway)
Feeling: a lot more peaceful about things these last few days, which I'm so grateful for because it really felt like my anxiety was getting bad again for a good few weeks there
Anticipating: the cool weather and everything about autumn

hammocks and sunshine

Sunday, September 2, 2018


            Happy long weekend loves! Today I wanted to chat with you about one of my favorite pastimes which is hammocking. Although I have fond memories of chilling in a net hammock at my grandparents' house as a kid, it wasn't until college that I totally fell for hammocking. I mean there wasn't a sunny day on campus where students weren't swinging in their hammocks all over the college I went to and it was something I instantly wanted to get on board with.


            The special thing about hammocking though (and it's not something you can quite discover until you try it yourself) is where it takes you. And not just physically, but spiritually and emotionally, too. And that is something I full-heartedly believe...

    • climbing into a hammock is spending time with mother nature.
    • fresh air is one of the best medicines out there. I swear it's like an entire detox for your whole body when you can get outside and away from the noise.
    • it's a perfect opportunity to meet God than right in the middle of His creations, you can see all the beauty and effort He put into every single thing out there, including you.
    • there's no better place to pull energy from than the eternal source that is nature. There is no finite source of good energy in nature. You can pull and pull and pull as you need and be fully rejuvenated the moment you find the way in which you need to spend time in nature. For some people it's hiking a mountain, others a walk through the park, some a coffee on their porch in the mornings, some tending to a garden, and some from their hammock with a good book. Whatever it is, it's out there among the trees and the wildflowers.



            So what takes you outdoors? For me it always involves a camera, a notebook, and a hammock, but I'd love to hear what you've found to be passionate about out in the wilderness... Let me know in the comments below!

With love, S.


goals and intentions for the end of the year

Saturday, September 1, 2018


            Don't mind me, over here jumping up and down for joy that it is finally September. I feel as if I finally find myself again when September hits and I find that spark I've been searching for all through the hot and humid summer months (I am not a summer person, if you can't tell). Anyways, today I felt really encouraged to set some intentions for the next few months, intentions that I hope will already be apart of my routine by the new year.

    • read more. I don't want to put a number on it, but I really would like to make an effort to always carry a book with me and always give a part of my time each day to read some.
    • write more. I also definitely want to put more time into this little blog as well as the stories that are inside my head.
    • a hundred days project. If you haven't heard of the hundred days project, it's when you pick a skill you want to improve on and you work on it everyday for a hundred days. I have a few ideas, but I would really like to start on it in the next few months.
    • drink more water.  I would love to get in the habit again of choosing water over other beverages, which I know if I set my mind to it for just a few short weeks I'll be back to being a full time water drinker. 
    • dive more into natural, intentional living. I'm slowly but surely getting rid of all the toxic products in my home and replacing them with natural and healthier alternatives. By the new year I hope I can look at my home and truly see that I've been intentional with this goal.
    • join young living. If you haven't heard of Young Living, from the sounds of it and from what I've researched it's a pretty incredible company all about essential oils and natural, non toxic products. I'm currently in the midst of saving up the extra money to invest in it.
    • paint more. I actually painted and completed a painting this week for the first time in I don't know how long, and I can't put into words how filling it was. 
    • practice gratitude. I want to be more mindful of the things I'm blessed to have in my life and practice gratitude as often as I can. Gratitude = Joy.
    • work on my relationship with Christ. I want to be more intentional with my time with the Lord and how I let that shine out in my actions.
            So there you have it! How I plan to be intentional in the remainder of this year. Do you have any goals for the upcoming months? Are you as excited for this season as I am? I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comment section below!

With love, S.

my favorite anxiety fighting essential oil blend

Thursday, August 30, 2018


            I am a big time essential oil enthusiast. Not only do they smell heavenly and have so many ways to utilize them, they also have so many benefits, too. The last few weeks I've been using a new blend I decided to throw together one day, it instantly blew me away how much I loved it so I decided to do some deeper research on the blend and the oils it consisted of.

            Where do I begin with this recipe!? It's calming. Peaceful. Uplifting. Anxiety fighting. It smells good and it's only made with three essential oils.

Peppermint. Lavender. Sweet Orange. 

            I typically do equal parts for each essential oil with this blend, whether I put it in my diffuser or use it with my favorite way to "wear" essential oils (my homemade necklaces made of hemp string and stones). Breaking down this oil recipe, I wanted to share with you a bit on what each oil brings to this blend...

Lavender

            - it creates a calming effect
            - it fights anxiety
            - it slows down the central nervous system
            - improves quality of sleep 

Sweet Orange

            - it acts as an antidepressant
            - it's uplifting

Peppermint
            - it fights anxiety
            - helps fight pain, nausea, and other forms of discomfort

            And those are just a few of the things each oil does! But I wanted to focus on the properties that make this blend so incredible so I limited it to those benefits. Let me know in the comments below if you plan on using this blend or if you've ever used any like it! And if you do try it, let me know what you think!

With love, S.

córdoba

Wednesday, August 29, 2018


            If I accomplish anything in this life, it's to see all the beauty and diversity that God's created in the world. For as long as I can remember I've been struck by the travel bug. I honestly can't remember being happier than I was the first time I left everything familiar and discovered the full, undying extent of my wanderlust in Córdoba, Spain. I wrote about some of my favorite bits that have remained like snapshots in my mind, so without further ado...

I LEFT MY HEART IN SPAIN, AND WITH ME I TOOK WANDERLUST...

        I remember falling asleep to the quiet hum of that old city on clean floral sheets with the balcony doors wide open. In a language I hardly recognized, voices and laughter would carry on in the streets below throughout the night, singing me to sleep like a lullaby. Morning arrived gracefully, and I'd wake up to the songs of birds and the sunlight peaking through the white curtains, it's warmth on my eyelids.

        Below the apartment I stayed in was a cobbled maze, streets lined with shops, cafes, apartments, and at the center of the district was the mosque with it's cascading tower reaching up towards the sky. When your somewhere completely new, you see differently. I could see narratives unfold like I'd never seen before. Traveling had taught me to see the world differently. Stories within the architecture, the art, the food, the language. Discovering Córdoba was like seeing magic for the first time. 

            I took walks through tangled, intricate gardens, designed with perfect intention. I set foot in buildings whose architecture moved my soul to emotions of gratitude so extreme I'd never quite felt before. The world fell still while I stood on top of castles and temples, watching the city and landscape dissolve into the horizon. And during this time I discovered undoubtedly, whether I was mid-exploring an old church, caught in a breathtaking view, drinking lemon Fanta at a market, dancing at my brothers wedding, or  doing something as simple as sitting on that balcony, that I would never stop dreaming of this feeling again. That wanderlust had caught me, heart and soul, and I was destined to find it again.

With love, S.


eleven things i learned about myself today

Saturday, August 25, 2018



1. ARE MY ACTIONS GUIDED BY LOVE OR FEAR?
    
            Although I pray and pray that I'll be guided by love, I'm absolutely a slave to fear. Most of it stems from my anxiety and my overwhelming fear of failure and disappointing others. I have good days where my actions are guided by love and I'm filled with a peaceful heart over the things I'm pursuing because I'm doing it out of complete love and joy. But there are the other days that seem much more frequent when it feels like I'm mostly doing things just to keep from feeling anxious.

2. WHAT DO I THINK ABOUT WHEN I AM ALONE?

            Honestly, so many things. But I'm in this constant mindset of my potential. Of the type of person I feel I am in my soul but I don't always know how to express on the outside. My head is always stuck on the possibilities of things, the infinite directions choices can lead us. I'm also a terrible over thinker, so sometimes things get blown out of proportion. And I'm a huge daydreamer, my imagination is always going.

3. WHAT MOVIE MADE ME CRY THE MOST?

            Dude. So. Many. Movies. I am such a cry baby when it comes to movies and books and shows. I get way to invested in fictional stories and characters. My Girl. Me Before You. A Walk to Remember. 10 Things I Hate About You.

4. WHAT ARE THE BEST AND WORST PARTS OF MY PERSONALITY?

            The best thing: I always put other people's happiness and peace before me. I'm pretty empathetic about how other's are feeling and their experiences and I can't stand to be in a better state than those around me. I'll do anything to lift others up and make them feel important.

            The worst thing: Kind of goes along with the best thing, I'm really not at all a social butterfly and I'm not good at expressing myself. I tend to internalize everything and I'm really not good at conversation either. I can write about things all day long but as soon as I have to speak them my whole brain turns to mush. So as much as I do connect and empathize with others, I can't always express it and it never gets across the right way to the other person.

5. HOW WOULD MY PERFECT PARTNER TREAT ME?

            Someone who constantly guide's me towards God's grace as I will him. That's always in my mind been the one ideal I aspire to in my relationships, or rather a necessity to it. Someone who also pushes me to love myself, love others, and to work hard. And ultimately someone who is fiercely loyal and faithful.

6. WHAT TIMES AM I MOST INSPIRED?

            I'm always most inspired late, late at night, but even more so in the early morning. Weekend mornings are my absolute favorite because I can wake up with the sun, give time to my morning rituals, and in return I'm always super productive.

7. IF I DIDN'T KNOW HOW OLD I WAS WHAT WOULD I ASSUME?

            I've always been such an old soul and I'm such a homebody. So soulfully, probably a lot older. But appearance wise, I really still look like I'm a teenager.

8. WHEN DO I FEEL THE MOST LIKE MYSELF?

            Writing. Photography. Art. Traveling. I wrote about it in a lot of detail here, talking about all the things that made me feel most alive.

9. WHAT DOES LOVE FEEL LIKE?

            Everything on intensity. 

10. WHAT GOOD COMES FROM PAIN?

            I look back at the times where I was at my worst and in a lot of pain, and foremost I witness an abundance of growth. You can't grow from being comfortable and it's every bit true that you can't find beauty without knowing the ugly. 

11. WHAT IS WORST, FAILING OR NEVER TRYING?

            Hands down, never trying is so much worse. There's truly nothing more awful than wondering 'what if.' And ultimately success is impossible without failure. There's a lot of learning and growth through the failure. And that's coming from someone who is terrified of failure.

With love, S.
Questions via here

"take heart"

Monday, August 13, 2018


            Today I wanted to share with you something near and dear to my heart. As someone who struggles with anxiety and has definitely been through seasons where I've let it get the best of me, I've always found that God's grace was the constant to pull me out.

            Jesus led this perfect life and yet died so that we who live such imperfect lives would not be held accountable for our sins when it came to our eternity. He overcame the world so that we wouldn't have to. I often find myself in awe when I think of the kind of life Jesus led, and how much more there must be to it that we've only scratched the surface of. All the things he witnessed and all the lives he touched during his brief time on Earth and here we are and he's still completely changing our hearts, wrecking us and remolding us to this very day.

            John 16:33 says:

"I have told you these things, so that in me 
you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. 
But take heart! I have overcome the world."

           I've always known John 16:33, and the message behind it has always been a big deal to me, but it wasn't until I read a book called Through the Eyes of a Lion by Levi Lusko (an incredible book, by the way) that my whole heart shifted with this scripture.

            "Jesus said that in this world we will have trouble, but he instructed us to take heart, because he has overcome the world (John 16:33). It is interesting that he said 'take heart,' because heart is also translated as courageousness, so he is saying 'take courage.' We often think of courage as an emotion or attribute that you either have or don't. Not so. Jesus' command is for you to take it from his hand - as much as you need... As we wait on the Lord, our hearts are strengthened, and we see things that are invisible and can then do things that are impossible."

            So when Jesus said heart, he was talking about:
                        courage
                        boldness
                        bravery
                        determination
                        faithfulness
                        fearlessness
                        firmness
                        fortitude

          And the beautiful thing about this is that it's not because of who we are, but it's because of who Christ is. Christ, his grace and his love, is an endless source of courage to take on the world with. And it doesn't matter how anxious, scared, weak, fearful, sinful, undeserving, or broken you feel. We are instructed to take from God's hand, and as much as we need. How pure and whole is that kind of love? It kind of leaves me speechless.

            To this day I've never looked at those words the same way. Sometimes even the word heart in a completely different context will call out to me. It's often too easy to let our anxieties get the best of us, we let fear control us and dictate are actions. Knowing that God has all the courage we need and we have access to it, lifts all that weight off our shoulders. There's something totally infinite and unconquerable about it, and that's all because of who Christ is. 

            "Faith is the antidote to losing heart.
It puts the lens of faith in front of your eyes and
gives you access to limitless courage."

So whatever battles you're facing, remember to remain faithful.

With love, S.

life lately | august

Thursday, August 9, 2018


Listening: to this playlist full of worship songs
Making: stone wrapped hemp pendants
Welcoming: the last weeks of summer, happily
Eating: garlic hummus and pita crackers
Drinking: lots and lots of La Croix
Watching: Criminal Minds
Reading: Present Over Perfect by Shauna Niequist 
Wishing: desperately for a good thunderstorm
Smelling: lavender essential oil
Praying: that I may find my own place in the next few months
Loving: how connected I feel to this blog I'm creating
Playing: my guitar, when I'm feeling inspired to
Thanking: God every day for his love 
Missing: a lot of my good friends and family that don't live so close to me
Writing: almost everyday, which I'm loving, and I really have this blog to thank for constantly inspiring me to pursue my writing
Discovering: how incredible natural products are working in my skincare routine
Thinking: a lot about traveling
Feeling: faithful that God will provide in this next chapter of my life



What have you been up to lately? 

With love, S. 

moving = living

Saturday, July 28, 2018


             Last week I went to the Tennessee Aquarium, and looking into the salt water tanks and watching the schools of fish, the sharks sea turtles, and stingrays swim by, I overheard a conversation between a father and his son. The father was describing how (certain types of) sharks had to keep swimming in order to live. Their whole lives and they never still... How wild is that? Sharks physically have to keep moving in order to live. If they're not moving, they can't produce oxygen.

            I kept going back to that idea, and I very quickly began to find a lot of symbolism in it. And I fully believe that if you look hard enough, God leaves us knowledge and advice to equip us, and not only in prayer and the bible, but guidance that can be found within his creations. It reminds us that if we're not moving: growing, changing, or evolving, then how could we possibly be living out our lives to the fullest?

            Keep going, keep moving forward. Even if you're scared. There's always room to grow and there's always new and exciting places around the corner. We weren't made to stand still. God created a far better legacy for us.

             Sometimes I let fear immobilize me, but real talk: you're never gonna grow inside your comfort zone. I think we sometimes have this fear of being defined by our failures. But in all honesty, I've discovered that we're defined by our actions, by our character, by our story, and failure is a part of that journey. And then sometimes it's not even about fear, it's about settling. Sometimes I just get used to things and before I know it, time is passing and I really didn't grow during that time. Carry that reminder, to always seek opportunities for growth. Don't let your goals and passions become a concept for the someday. Do something today, move today.

So remember, just keep swimming and moving = living.

With love, S.

morning rituals

Monday, July 23, 2018


            Hello friends! Today I wanted to talk about morning rituals. I'm a total morning person, but I only truly love mornings when I feel energized and I have the opportunity to be productive. Morning rituals for me are all about finding positive energy to ignite the day, setting intentions so I can better seek out my goals, as well as engaging with my mind and body.

            There is nothing I dislike more than a rushed morning, I always find that it tends to leave me feel anxious the rest of the day. I feel like all the speed bumps and stumbling blocks of being an introvert are brought out, too. I'm kind of left with a pit in my stomach the rest of the day, kind of like how you feel when you're late for a deadline.

            Ultimately when I engage in this morning ritual, I also find that I am so much more motivated to actually seek out opportunities to accomplish my goals and I just have a better day in general. I'm more carefree with the daily stressors that life brings me, I'm more optimistic and inspired.

MY MORNING RITUAL

  1. I hydrate with a glass of water.
  2. I open up the blinds and windows (if the weather is nice) to let in the natural light and fresh air, I also take this time to add essential oil to my diffuser.
  3. I tend to my plants.
  4. I make my bed (a clean space is a happy place).
  5. I meditate and use this time to set my intentions for the day and express gratitude.
  6. I stretch and do yoga while I either listen to a podcast or instrumental music.
  7. I brush my teeth, go through my skin care and beauty routine (again, usually while I listen to a podcast or music).
  8. I sit down with my bible and utilize this time to talk with Jesus.
  9. I attempt to eat breakfast...I'm really bad at eating breakfast and if I do eat it, it's usually quite small.

            I will say that most mornings, I don't accomplish every task on this list. And sometimes not even half on my work days. However, everyday I do make an effort to do as many of these as  I can. I find that the more that I do, the better day I have, and that makes me all the more motivated to do it again tomorrow.

            What are some things you like to include in your morning routine? I'd love to hear your answers in the comments below!

With love, S.

plant mom

Saturday, July 21, 2018


           Ever since I was a child, dreaming of my the home I'd have someday, I always wanted to fill it with books and plants. I can't think of any two things that are better for the soul. Maybe it's the day dreamer and the hippie in me. Maybe it's because I always remember those two things about the home I grew up in. 

            Early this morning, I got in my car and made a trip to a botanical wonderland and picked out two plants, grabbed some pots so they'd have a home, and some soil. I ended up picking a camille plant and a maiden hair fern. 


MEET MY NEW PLANTS

Camille

Dieffenbachia maculata
I call her: Camilla (Get it? Haha - I'm lame)

Maiden Hair Fern

Adiantum pubescens 
I call her: Lorelei



            The second I put these guys in my home, my mood was instantly lifted and it felt as if there was life to my space. Research tells me that Lorelei is going to be a bit high maintenance and to keep Camilla far away from my roommate's cats. Fingers crossed that I don't become a plant killer because I'm sure I'll grow into a full fledged plant serial killer. So if you have any love and advice or suggestions for good indoor plants to adopt, please comment below!

With love, S. 

one hundred things i'd rather hold than my phone

Thursday, July 19, 2018



            Something I have been really trying to do lately is to be more conscientious of how I spend my time. I only really got thinking about it when I was prompted to change my way of thinking. Instead of using the excuse that I simply did not have time to do something, I needed to be honest with myself: I simply was not making that thing a priority. And that was a real eye opener. It really causes you to sit and reevaluate your self and how you choose to spend your time.

            Following that, I stumbled upon this exercise, writing a list of things I would rather hold in my hands than my phone. Of course, what is more important than this list, is being intentional in putting my phone away and choosing to live in the moment, or if I have to, bring meaning to that moment by finding something else to occupy my mind and hands. And with that being said, here are a hundred things I'd rather hold than my phone, and as I hope a hundred possibilities I can choose from the next time I reach for my phone out of boredom...


ONE HUNDRED THINGS I'D RATHER HOLD THAN MY PHONE

  1. the bible
  2. a hand written letter
  3. my camera
  4. a hand of someone I care about
  5. a kitten
  6. a stack of old family photos
  7. my favorite book
  8. someone's hair as I braid it
  9. a mug filled with coffee
  10. a plane ticket
  11. the steering wheel of my car
  12. a glass of ice water
  13. my guitar
  14. black nail polish
  15. a bouquet of flowers
  16. the comforter on my bed
  17. a devotional
  18. a new pack of sharpies
  19. the keys of a type writer
  20. a deck of cards
  21. concert tickets
  22. puzzle pieces
  23. weights to make my arms strong
  24. produce at a farmer's market
  25. a slice of pizza
  26. a psychology textbook
  27. a paint brush
  28. aquarium tickets
  29. my passport
  30. a coloring book
  31. Harry Potter book
  32. the keys of a piano
  33. stones on the beaches of Lake Superior
  34. the handle bars of my bike
  35. a honeysuckle flower
  36. a journal and pen
  37. a polaroid camera
  38. my yoga mat
  39. a postcard
  40. someone close while we talk for hours
  41. an iced coffee
  42. hands in prayer
  43. handwritten notes
  44. movie popcorn
  45. a list written on paper of adventures to go on
  46. a national geographic magazine
  47. embroidery thread
  48. my laptop as I settle down to write
  49. ballet slippers
  50. a planner
  51. a mug of hot chocolate
  52. my cross necklace
  53. a fortune cookie
  54. a potted plant
  55. a newborn baby
  56. a photograph I developed in a darkroom from film
  57. the reins of a horse's bridle
  58. a collection of photos from my trip to Spain
  59. a handmade gift
  60. a sushi menu
  61. a photo album
  62. a to do list
  63. my hands up in worship
  64. movie tickets
  65. a grocery list
  66. a film canister
  67. smores at a bonfire
  68. my favorite ring
  69. a venti sweetened passion tango iced tea from Starbucks
  70. my Friends DVDs
  71. tortilla chips and a bowl of queso
  72. a list of positive affirmations
  73. raindrops in the palm of my hand
  74. my wood burning tool
  75. a sunflower
  76. a library card
  77. a stack of my grandmother's recipes handwritten on scrap paper and index cards
  78. a candle and a match
  79. frosted animal crackers
  80. a sparkler
  81. a family scrapbook
  82. a glass of sweet tea
  83. a notebook full of outlines for a book I'm writing
  84. a pottery piece handmade by my grandmother
  85. the tiny hands of the kiddos I teach
  86. tacos
  87. clay I'm molding into something
  88. my essential oil bottles
  89. my suitcase
  90. my hammock, while I hunt for a place to hang it up
  91. the cross hanging in my rearview mirror
  92. hemp string as I make it into a bracelet
  93. a stack of books I'm buying from a local bookstore
  94. a peach
  95. a cookbook
  96. a plate of baked pita bread and hummus
  97. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
  98. my water bottle
  99. my gym membership card
  100. a sharpie while I doodle a tattoo on skin
With love, S.

dear photography...

Saturday, July 14, 2018


Dear Photography,

            Who would have thought that you would become my nearest and dearest companion. That I would take you everywhere with me. On every adventure, big and small, everyday of my life. You watched me grow up. You were there for me when I didn't even know that photography could be something more than beautiful, but embedded in me, a part of my very being. You were there in my childhood, when I didn't know how to appreciate such a connection. I never realized until many years later that you had a hold of me even then.

          One of my more vivid memories as a child was going canoeing with my family. I didn't know how to swim and I was overwhelmed with the fear that I'd manage to fall in. It wasn't until my dad handed me his old film camera, that I looked through the view finder and other else mattered. I know now that was the spark. Do you remember how awful the pictures were? Blurry, horribly composed...looking back, I have no idea what I was even aiming for half the time when I clicked the shutter.

            My entire life, I've been nothing short of a creative soul. As a child, I did everything under the sun that pertained to creating. I played make-believe, constructing my own little stories and universes, with the imagination of endless possibilities. I loved arts and crafts and I absolutely adored music. As I got older I began to read and write. I learned piano and guitar, and I loved to sing and dance. I did anything to share a bit of that rare beauty with the world.

            But it wasn't until you came along, Photography, that the world made perfect sense to me, that you and I were somehow meant to find each other. As I got older you became not just my way of looking at the world, but a way to hold onto it and an entirely new art form to fall in love with. My camera became a part of me and it never left my side. I set out to learn as much as I could about you and we ran wild.

            You became my obsession and it was because of you that I began to look at the world in a whole new way. You inspired me. You taught me to see beauty in everything, that it was all about perspective. I've gotten so many opportunities out of having you in my life. You've taught me to dream bigger and I thank you for that.

           And just so you know, it's just the beginning for us, my love. I already have great plans for us, just as I'm sure we will find something magnificent and unexpected around every corner. But if there's anything I know, Photography, is that you and I can do anything we set our hearts and minds to. And I don't think any of it would be possible without you, and I love you for that.


With love, S.   

things i'd rather be than pretty

Friday, July 13, 2018



            Today, I want to encourage you to grab a pen, sit down with a notebook and begin writing a list (you will soon learn that I am a huge fan of lists). I want you to write down a list of all the things you would rather be than pretty. We spend so much time obsessing over how we look. And while there's nothing wrong with dedicating some time to work on your appearance, I think too often we become concerned with this idea that we are defined by our appearance - to the point that other things aren't as important. And that just shouldn't be the case... I found this exercise, and I instantly fell in love with the idea. Every word I wrote down, I gave thought. Each word has power to me, and each word I hope to embody.

THINGS I'D RATHER BE THAN PRETTY

  brave
  nurturing
  conscientious
  smart
  empathetic

  humble
  ambitious
  devoted
  polite
  free-spirited
  kind
  self-disciplined
  captivating
  inspiring
  loyal
  philanthropic
  loving
  open-minded
  philosophical
  generous
  trustworthy
  funny
  engaging
  wise
  soulful
  driven
  adventurous
  well-read
  creative
  determined
  charitable
  thoughtful
  hard-working
  intuitive
  encouraging
  gracious

What are some things you would rather be than pretty?
I'd love to hear your ideas!

what makes me feel alive

Thursday, July 12, 2018


TRAVELING

            I think the happiest I've ever been was the summer I went to Córdoba, Spain. I've never felt so alive as I did flying over the Atlantic, walking through the cobbled streets of a European city, and trying the new foods and traditions. It was the first time I got to fulfill my wanderlust in a way I hadn't quite before. Although I love road trips and exploring around Tennessee and America, seeing a whole new culture was incomparable

SOULFUL CONVERSATIONS

            I absolutely adore those soulful, one on one conversations. The ones where you really get to see into the heart of another person. What sets their soul on fire. The way they think. What they dream about. I love it best when those conversations lead to Jesus.

PHOTOGRAPHY

            I really can't put into words how head over heels I am in love with photography. I love the versatility of the art form. How you can document and tell a story about the world or you can literally create a story. Or how you can play with the emotions of an image by the most subtle things or manipulate the photos through editing. I could sit in photoshop and lightroom for hours and never get bored of it.

ART

            I truly believe I feel the most alive when I'm creating. And I've fallen in love with so many forms of it ever since I was a child, if it had anything to do with dance, art, or music, I threw my whole self into it.

WRITING

            Out of everything that makes me feel alive (that and my relationship with Christ), writing is the most personal. It's the one thing I'm least likely to share with anyone. I feel like when I write, a part of my soul goes with it. And sharing it would be baring the most insecure bits of me. Getting to blog, while it is very personal, isn't nearly as hard as creative writing. I feel the bond I create with my characters, with their stories and the places I write about it. It's intense, and it's why not a lot of people know that I absolutely love writing.

GLORIFYING CHRIST

           Out of everything I hope to accomplish in my time on Earth, I hope to always live to worship Christ. To glorify God through my purpose. To mend the broken hearted, lead the blind, and be a voice to the voiceless. To live as Christ-like as I can each and every day. And I feel SO alive when I see Christ moving through my life. When I am open to HIS plan for me, I feel that his strength is unstoppable when I'm up against mountains and battles.


            Let me know in the comments below, what sets your soul on fire? What makes you feel alive? Did you feel a connection with anything I wrote about? I'd love to hear your answers!

With love, S. 

playlist no. 01 - praise

Wednesday, July 11, 2018


Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
- Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong United -


            One of the biggest ways I worship and connect to my God is through music. I wanted to share a few songs that make my heart swell. Songs I love to listen to in the car. Songs that instantly lift me out of a down mood. Songs that leave me deep in thought and covered in goosebumps. Songs that never fail to inspire me and remind me about the never-ending love of Christ. You can also check this playlist out on Spotify

      1. Behold (Then Sings My Soul) (Live) by Hillsong Worship
      2. So Will I (100 Billion X) by Hillsong United
      3. Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong United
      4. What A Beautiful Name by Hillsong Worship
      5. I Surrender (Live) by Hillsong Worship
      6. Transfiguration (Live) by Hillsong Worship
      7. You Make Me Brave by Amanda Cook
      8. Miracles by Alisa Turner
      9. Heal Our Land by Kari Jobe
      10. It is Finished by Matt Birkenfeld
      11. Tremble by Mosaic MSC
      12. Pieces By Steffany Gretzinger 

            I'm always on the hunt for new music to listen to. If you have any worship songs that resonate with this playlist, please feel free to share them below in the comments! 

With love, S.

thirty-five ways to practice self-love

Thursday, July 5, 2018





          I am a firm believer that self-love is one of the most important steps towards becoming the best version of yourself. To love your soul, mind, and body, the parts you like just as much as the parts you don't. Self love is an ongoing practice. It's not something you wake up with and suddenly have for the rest of your life, so I thought I'd share a list of ways to spark some self-love today...
  1. practice yoga and meditation
  2. sit and write in a coffee shop
  3. go outside and feed your lungs fresh air
  4. volunteer, it's a confidence booster and it opens your eyes to new experiences
  5. start a journal
  6. brighten someone's day
  7. eat as many fruits and vegetables as possible
  8. buy a plant or flowers for your living space
  9. put on an uplifting song and dance
  10. cook a new dish
  11. go to an art museum
  12. express gratitude
  13. unplug, put away your phone and electronics for a few hours
  14. read a book
  15. watch the sunrise or sunset
  16. go to sleep early, and get enough rest to wake up early, too
  17. drink a hot cup of tea or coffee, or water (cold)
  18. start your day off with stretching
  19. listen to a podcast or an audio book (try multi-tasking, while your driving, cooking, cleaning)
  20. do at least one thing that gets you closer to your goals
  21. declutter, minimize your space and throw away or donate as much as you can
  22. create a vision board
  23. go on a friendship date
  24. keep a notebook (a place to keep your ideas, your thoughts, to-do lists)
  25. get creative (the possibilities are endless: photography, music, painting, writing, cooking, crafting)
  26. work out, or try something new to shake up your routine (try only using your body, doing an outdoor work out, or attend a class)
  27. listen to an instrumental playlist (Deep Focus on Spotify is a good one)
  28. go on a drive (no destination, no plans, just drive)
  29. burn a candle or diffuse essential oil
  30. make a bucket list and start crossing things off
  31. surround yourself with positive energy and people
  32. treat yo self, take yourself on a date or stay in with good food an a movie
  33. read the scriptures or indulge in something spiritual that's close to your heart
  34. go to a farmer's market
  35. watch an old favorite film
With love, S.

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